Last one standing

I know full well (perhaps all too well), what it's like to be the odd one out - to be singled out, stared at...to feel so incredibly fragile, insecure, and inferior. There are so many adjectives to define a part of me in a chapter of my life that is quite embarrassing, but I've moved on. I do believe things happen for a reason, and I know because of the obstacles I overcame years ago that I've become a stronger person. Why am I writing about this? Because today I witnessed a boy who was left group-less for some class assignment. Maybe I should have said or done something, but I didn't feel compelled to. I already had a group of 3, which was the maximum allowed, and since it was the end of class I wanted to bolt out and embrace FREEDOM. Man...I so despise myself right now. To hear the guy being shot down after asking the teacher if he could do the assignment alone just hurts. This reminds me of a boy in my lit class in senior year who did everything alone. Sometimes you want to reach out but your body doesn't want to budge. Do I regret it? Possibly somewhere deep down in my conscience I do. Knowing you could've done something but didn't isn't exactly the best feeling anyone could ever have. (What ever happened to CARPE DIEM?) But I know if someone showed me compassion in a situation like this, I would think the world of them. Just knowing someone notices you and cares about you, particularly a stranger who isn't a creeper, is truly a wonderful feeling.

Someone once told me that although loneliness hurts, it is conquerable. Thank you. ^^ That's one of the most inspirational things I've ever heard. (Although if you're battling any type of depression it probably wouldn't be the greatest advice).

I end with incredible lyrics that in a way relate to this blog, but most importantly, hit home with me:

"Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday...
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be someone"
-Someday, Rob Thomas